The Spawn Of A Rockstar .

Hello World .
As i sit on the edge of my mothers bed this evening ,
We spent time looking through old photos .
My mother picked up a photo of my biological father .
A man i never knew .
I am his child .
But he chose not to claim me for his own .
My mother had told me he was a musician .
A guitarist who has played for several different bands .

I went searching on the internet .
Where i discovered that He has played guitar solos for The Hot Chili Peppers .
Nirvana . 24-7 . Bad Brains . Funkenstien . Snoop dogg . Ice Cube . . etc .

I went on You Tube .
Where i saw a video of him playing in Tokyo .
and played on the side of Bootsy Collins .

It's remarkeble how he knows that i am his child .
But he has never devoted one minuete to raising me ,
Helping me to promote my spritulality,
Or mold me into the person i am today .

My mother and father have instilled morals and values In me ,
they have taught me everything i know .
They have showed up for basketball games ,
track meets and plays ,
They have taken my siblings and i on family vacations and adventures .
Garry has never done anything for me .
He has never cooked a meal for meal or help me get ready for school .
He knows nothing about me .
He doesn't know where I'm alive or dead .

How could you not care about where you child is ?
How can you sleep at night knowing that your child is living a seperate life from
yours ?
Knowing wherether i am alive or dead ?
Cold and homeless ?
In sickness or in health ?
It's a disgrace and a insult to himself .
If i was a father to a child ,
I would spend every waking moment teaching them ,
taking them places ,
And telling them " I Love You ."
being a father like a real man should .
I would die not knowing where my own child could be .
Your flesh, your blood ,
Here by the grace of God at sixteen years of age .
Learning day by day what life is about .
and he is not here to witness it .

But that's okay i understand that you are not the father that i would have
liked you to be , I hold no ill feelings torward your choices that you have made ,
But know that the choices that i will make will make any man proud to be my father .

Although i have a father who does not share my blood or flesh ,
He has bent backwards to take care of my mother and provide for our family .
He has shared times with me i shall never forget ,
and has taought me many things in different ways .
I thank God for allowing me to have a father ,
To know what that relationship feels like ,
And to have a complete family that is whole .
I used wonder if anyone understands the way that i feel .
But i know that i am not alone .

Stepson of P.Diddy , Quincy “iQ” Brown has recently come out about the feelings he has about his
biological father Al B. Sure in his self written letter, A letter To My Father :

" As far as my biological father goes, the “spitting image” is all I have taken from him. Throughout my life, I’ve always wondered about him; Where he was? What was he doing? and most importantly, Was he even thinking about me? The absence of my father has given me a better understanding of what type of man I am going to be. I am grateful for my mom’s love, support, guidance, and for her strength ."

To those who share my plight ,
Know that you are loved .


I'm singing off .

:))))