Listening to Coldplay .
Every time I think about how many times I've been lied to .
I think about the day that leads me to this moment in my life right now .
I've been told what to do and how to life my life from people of all ages .
And It seems like everyone had lived their life but me .
I'm at this certain stage where I'm trying to figure out if I am in love or not .
Because people have confused me so much I don't know what to believe anymore .
I ask questions and I get none of the answers I want .
I open my mind and my soul and only I know what's inside me .
I wish you could see inside my mind and only then would you truly
understand my world .
I think I'm in love and they tell me I don't know what love is .
But I believe love can be experienced at any age at any point inside this wild warp of
contradiction we call time .
I close my eyes .
I think of him one time , and I feel this sudden euphoria .
I feel a burst of happiness .
I feel whole and complete .
I feel like crying because of how grateful I am to have God
allowing me to lay eyes on him .
Every time I get like this I want to call him and tell him how much I love him .
I want to breakdown and cry into his arms, runaway with a million dollars to California
and live in this luxurious condo with plenty of palm trees and smoke blunts all day .
I want to have a 17 Karat Trillion cut on my finger .
And get away from all this madness .
But This only exists in my mind .
And I breakdown and cry again .
Because this is only a cruel teasing fantasy from the mind that will never come true .
The reality of this is unknown .
Because he sees that I'm not a greedy selfish whore that open her legs
to anyone she feels need to .
I'm not one to play mind games .
I'm not the one that would break him .
I am a strong willed woman who will get shit done .
I am the one who is not afraid to take chances and adjust to change .
Hell I was forced to live in Houston after the hurrican took my house on national
CNN .
I am the one .
Period .
And Coldplay is playing my song :
" When it started we had high hopes
Now my back’s on the line '
My back’s on the ropes
When it started we were alright
But night makes a fool of us In the daylight
There we were dying of frustration
Saying Lord lead me not into temptation
But it’s not easy when she’s turns you on
Still stay gone
If you’d only If you’d only say “Yes”
Whether you will’s anybody’s guess
God only God knows I’m trying my best
But I’m just so tired of this loneliness . "
Peace in the middle east .
HighRise.
Contrary to popular belief:
I'm complicated.
What it is one time PAC DIV.
My mind is a blood red brick house on Stone street
with thousands of rooms; blue mirrors,
the auroma of marajuana and music.
Cacoethes Scribendi. Get it tattooed on my wrist.
New Orleans native. My accent proves it all.
I am finally beggining to accept the fact that I am meant to be alone.
I am forever in the cycle of change.
I tend to treat serious situations like how I treat strangers.
I'm a starving writer and a dying phtographer.
No one will ever comprehend or understand.
When I die I want Bob Marley playing at my gravesite.
I am the rose that grew from concrete.
What it is one time PAC DIV.
My mind is a blood red brick house on Stone street
with thousands of rooms; blue mirrors,
the auroma of marajuana and music.
Cacoethes Scribendi. Get it tattooed on my wrist.
New Orleans native. My accent proves it all.
I am finally beggining to accept the fact that I am meant to be alone.
I am forever in the cycle of change.
I tend to treat serious situations like how I treat strangers.
I'm a starving writer and a dying phtographer.
No one will ever comprehend or understand.
When I die I want Bob Marley playing at my gravesite.
I am the rose that grew from concrete.
