Contrary to popular belief:

I'm complicated.
What it is one time PAC DIV.
My mind is a blood red brick house on Stone street
with thousands of rooms; blue mirrors,
the auroma of marajuana and music.
Cacoethes Scribendi. Get it tattooed on my wrist.
New Orleans native. My accent proves it all.
I am finally beggining to accept the fact that I am meant to be alone.
I am forever in the cycle of change.
I tend to treat serious situations like how I treat strangers.
I'm a starving writer and a dying phtographer.
No one will ever comprehend or understand.
When I die I want Bob Marley playing at my gravesite.
I am the rose that grew from concrete.



7.13.2009

Dora And Vistors .

Sunday .
The best yet worst day of the week .
Sunday = Church and spiritual salvationn .
Sunday= School the next day .
Lol .

Woke up at seven .
Went to church with my Moms .
ILHerrrr <3>
Then came back home .
Went to HEB .
Rolling down the Aisle to go checkout .
Jamming Curren$y Ft Wiz Khalifa "Rolling Up" .
That's the fucking song right there .
Wearing this little shirt and some coochie cutting shorts . HA .
It was hot outside . Can you blame me ?
Anyway , I see the faces of all faces .

Tyler Freaking Beasley .

You know that sound of a record scratching when you see something messed up or crazy ?
I heard that sound . Lmao .
Then the song changed to sparks by Coldplay .
" My heart is yours , It's you that I hold on to . . ."
" Man, WTF ! "
So I turned it back to Rolling Up .
The craziest shit about this is that right before I turned to go to that Aisle ,
I thought about the first time I talked to him at school .



Fourth period transition .
Leaving English T-hall .
Going over to S hall .
I had on this white polo and some black skinny jeans and some
vandals . And then I saw Him , And he had
on this brown polo and this Brown jansport backpack .
And He didnt see me .
So I stood right behind him .
And he was like on the balcony .
so I hit him on his coconut head .

Smiling at each other .
" That hurt ."
" No It didn't ."


I wanted to go run and hide behind the flower stand .
But then I realized he was too close for me to avoid him so I had to keep
walking .
So we make these little stupid faces at each other .
And continue to go where we needed to go .
I got really nevous for some weird reason .
I thought I was having a convulsion .
So much so that I drop eveerything out of my MTV bag .
Damn .
Then I have these tiny ass shorts on .
Oh Well .
The shit isn't going to crawl back into the bag by itself .
So I bend over and pick it up .
Check out .
Walk outside to the car .
Go home .


On the whole way home I have a revelation .
It was sad .
I accidentaly spoke out my thought .
" I can't feel like this anymore . "
And my moms is all like ,
" I saw you looking at that boy . "
But she always says that .
Lol .

So then i go to work .
And come home .
And my little niece has a Dora The Explorer birthday party
And Brandon James texts me after the partyy and tell me hes coming to my house .
And I'm like Ok .
So he comes and brings people . Lol .
Cody, Daruyn and the wack nigga named Kevin L .
But it was cool .
They stayed for 20 .
Then Jetted .
I'lll type somemore later :)